Dear Spirits,



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Today I thought about how much i miss the old internet. Its 2026, and I've been struggling with myself. My mental health, my self esteem/respect, my ego, etc.. and I didnt know why. I've been struggling with this for a while and I thought it just came from out of nowhere but then I started thinking maybe it was more of a slow descend.

As a kid, I remember loving the internet, but I couldn't remember why, and how it changed. So i started thinking, 'what did I enjoy about the internet? Why is it now when I look I can feel my brain being stewed in a bowl of acid and thorns?' What are the things that shape us? Things we consume, things we are exposed to, do we have a choice in how that changes us?



And then I realized, everything has been taken over by brand names, short form content, and overstimulated echo chambers. What once was the creative hub for people to find safe spaces, got taken over by corporate marketing teams who can access those spaces and exploit them. Whatever's hot and "trendy" is basically known and used by the people with the most and/or all the money, imagine what they could do. The creativity, gone. The safe spaces, gone. Now every meme is known, every kind of lingo is said, and I know how my actions as a nobody can effect the lives of thousands of people just because some guy at "Big CompanyTM" saw it. There's no more privacy, and as an up and coming young adult who has to find a job, it's practically impossible without some form of online presence. It's too much for anyone to bare.

I miss when the internet was my safe space, with people expressing their creative and artsy ideas. People having unique profiles and content, with opinions that differ from one another. I hate that Instagram has Ad breaks now. I cannot scroll passed an ad, I have to sit there for a monetary duration of time. In 2013, if I didn't like a website for a reason, I stopped using it and used another one. But now thats impossible, because if I wanted to use a different website, Meta not only has instagram, but other websites like Facebook. and X has Twitter and more. I can't escape these evil mfers. Not only that but I always have to make an account now instead of just scrolling the internet freely. What even is Youtube and its homepage anymore if not brands and celebrities doing stupid challenges?